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I love my friends. [05 Dec 2007|09:59am]
Even though I've known this all along, it's nice to re-realize how amazing my friends really are.

And Happy Hannukah to those of you who celebrate. =]
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[01 Dec 2007|07:20pm]
I am so sick of opening myself up to some guy and then having him treat me like I'm not even human. I'm so sick of being such a nice person to everyone, to always believing the best of people. It always ends up getting me hurt. I know my happiness shouldn't be measured by a guy being in my life or not, and it isn't, but sometimes I just feel like shit because of guys.

At least he was honest when he told me he'd manipulate me to get what he wanted and then dump me like yesterday's news. Then he had the nerve to text me today and say "How do you feel?" Take a wild guess, buddy.

For once I would like a guy to like me for who I am.

Also, I should really learn to listen to my friends and trust my instinct more.
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I'm still alive, kind of... [13 Sep 2007|12:27am]
[ mood | not good enough ]

I'm on my mom's laptop right now because she is asleep. My laptop still kind of refuses to work for me. It will turn on and after five minutes it will shut off and not turn on for a couple days. Beyond frustrating, especially since the fall semester is in full swing.

Student Events Board (SEB) is going well so far for the most part. There are some things that are getting to me but it's probably because i have a lot of shit going on in my life right now.

To put it as simple as possible, my summer was extremely bipolar. It certainly had its highs and it had its lows to accompany those highs. Right now the lows are winning the struggle. Each day is pretty tough to get through, whether or not I put a fake face on. Family problems, personal problems, Michaels forcing me to quit. They're all getting to me right now. And the thing is that I feel so incredibly alone right now. I feel I can't really talk to anyone about anything that's happening right now. Granted, there are a couple of people, to whom I am so grateful for, but even then, I feel like I'm being some burnen or bothering them with my problems.

Oh well, we'll see how the rest of September goes. Hanson concerts in Baltimore and DC on Saturday and Sunday. Still don't know if I'm going. I really don't have the money but I really need an escape from my life for a couple days. They'll be a sufficient enough escape to last for a week or two. Then I don't know what'll happen.

Oh well, back to my neverending studying for Spanish 201.

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so adamn away: Hope tomorrow is an amazing day and you have a great time!
so adamn away: doing your sweet whatever you're doing
so adamnaway: and being old

Text message from Christina at Michaels: Happy Birthday!

So yes, today's my birthday. My 24th birthday, to be exact. I never really looked forward to my 21st birthday, seeing as how I rarely drink. I've always looked forward to today. June 24, 2007. My champagne birthday. I turn 24 and the 24th and I am beyond determined to make today especially kickass. My family and I will eat at The Cheesecake Factory for lunch and there I will open up presents. From there I will drive to Ocean City to chill with Emily for a couple days, as she is house sitting down there and likes company. So it will be fun and a blast and I seriously cannot wait for the rest of the day.

To my birthday buddies Lis and Lizzy, I hope today is your best birthday yet and that you savor every moment of today. Have fun spending it with family and/or friends and know that you're loved so much! :D

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EVERYONE READ & HELP ME [22 Jun 2007|08:33am]

Today Hanson launch a contest where the grand prize is that they will write a song about the winning fan. Now, what could be better than a song about raptors, hives, Chompers, and toe socks? Nothing, I tell you.

I need to win by getting as many diffferent people to click my specific banner. So you will click mine and you will click it alone because I WANT TO WIN, DAMN IT!

And I don't care if you don't particularly like Hanson. Give 'em a try anyways. For me. *bats eyes*


Together, we can make this work and we can win me this contest. My banner should be up after my horrible, horrible, day at work. At least now I have something to look forward to.

Have a most spetacular day. I know I will while working my 8-hour shift at Mchaels during our biggest sale/a contest week.

<33 erin

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10 years ago today... [19 Jun 2007|10:52am]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

On June 19th 1997 at approximately 9:00pm EST, I first learned the MMMBop energizer. I can't believe that today is my ten year anniversary of being a Hanson fan. Looking back, I'm really in awe of the last decade. This is really all I can say right now. I have a midterm to study for and then promptly after that my dad and I are going to see The Doobie Brothers at Wolf Trap. No better way to celebrate my favorite band than to see my dad's favorite band, which my favorite band covered on tour.

Leave me lots of loves. You can even leave them in the form of a Hanson LJ icon, I've decided. I deserve them, damn it. ;)

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[16 Jun 2007|11:09am]
Soo Hanson posted a few tour dates. Thet are in Providence RI, Boston MA, and NYC. I have bought a ticket for the Providence show. I don't even know if I'm going or who I am going with. All I know is that this may be my only opportunity to see them this summer. If they decide to start touring mid August then I'll be screwed because of my prior committments with SEB. So I've decided that I'll se them in at least Providence and Boston. Who knows? I'll probably end up joining a group of people going to and camping out for both of those shows.

If anyone from around here is going to those shows let me know and we can go together!
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[13 Jun 2007|08:45pm]
[ mood | bummed ]

Today at work wasn't too bad. Time actually kind of flew by, which was really cool. I like working shifts with my framing manager because he's fun to work with and we keep busy and gets lots of work done. Not to mention that I had an "all-star deal" to quote my manager. I took some old people's money for all their worth. Or something.

Towards the latter part of my shift we found out that during our 50% Your Entire Custom Order sale next week that we are having a contest. HUGE contrest. But it sucks for us because there is no way we are going to win. To even be eligible to win the contest each store has to sell 15% over their forecast/last year's sales. Our sales last year were over $25k.

Because of this HUGE IMPORANT sale, the store manager wants every shift covered as much as possible so if we get busy we will be covered and be able to handle it. This means that I was scheduled for two days that I requested off. Thursday I have requested off because I have class, but now I'm just going to show up 30 minutes late. And I requested off Saturday so I could go to dinner with my friends. But I can't have it off because this contest is huge and they need loads of help. So I'm stuck and it sucks.

And now my mood is totally blah because of this whole thing. I'm actually really bummed about it.

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stolen from adamjk [11 Jun 2007|02:20pm]
Here's a meme floating around:

1. Open your Winamp/iTunes.
2. Put the shuffle-mode on.
3. Find a picture of the first 20 artists. If the same artist comes again, skip.
4. Have your friends guess who the artists are.

p.s. bonus points to whoever can guess how many times a certain band popped up.

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[08 Jun 2007|10:47am]
My current "obsessions" are the two Disney Channel shows Hannah Montana and The Suite Life of Zack and Cody. I just can't seem to get enough of these shows right now.

Ohhhh Erin, haha.

So who wants to go to Red Robin with me on June 23rd at 5:30 to celebrate my brithday? Everyone! Great! That's what I've decided I'm doing.
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"Did you guys have fun with Hanson?" [05 Jun 2007|11:54am]
I'm taking a break from studying for my TV in American Culture quiz because I just realized something. Seven years ago today I attended my first concert--a Hanson concert. I went with my Uncle Mark and Christina, one of my best friends.

It was so cool to be in a crowd of fellow Hanson fans, although some were definitely closet fans. While the crew was setting up Hanson's equipment, people started chanting "Hanson sucks!" Of course those people had to sit right behind me. I just tried to laugh at it. When Hanson came out, though, those same people were singing along to all of their MON songs, as well as their two singles off TTA.

At that concert I realized how crazy Hanson fans were. A group of four 16 year olds drove from Philly to see Hanson and snuck into my row to be closer to Hanson. At that time I couldn't believe that people would travel for a band. Funny how time changes opinions. Now I can't seem to get enough of traveling to see them.

The sad thing is I remember what I wore. Grey jeans, a white tank top, my black Airwalks, my hair up in a pony tail. I loved how about half of the audience left after Hanson's set to see them by their buses. We stayed for Jessica Simpson. The biggest cheers she got happened when she asked us if we had fun with Hanson. Poor girl. It's been downhill for her ever since she appeared on the scene.

So yes, happy 7 year anniversary for me. I've been to 20 concerts in 8 states and DC. Not too shabby. This summer I hope to see tham anywhere from 5 to 10 times and to see them in at least 3 new states. So who wants to seriously travel with me and camp out with me?
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[04 Jun 2007|11:37pm]
I wonder if this thing will fucking work and let me actually post an entry.
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[16 May 2007|03:15am]
Pictures from my trip to Tulsa

Thanks to everyone who filled out my radio survey. I had enough information to write the 10-page essay. During class when we said a three sentence synopsis about our paper, my professor said he may use my paper for his next book, which will be about why radio sucks. Unfortunately, my paper sucks. I've actually decided that I'm going to redo the most of the assignment and rewrite the paper completely. I want to write this paper the way it was supposed to be written. And I will hopefully get my professor to read it and give me feedback on the whole assignment. This will not be for a grade. I just feel I need to do the assignment correctly. It's something I need to prove to myself.

Last night's Memoir class was a hoot. We had a potluck and then we critiqued four pieces. Mine was the first to be critiqued. My piece was about learning the MMMBop energizer and what it meant to me then and what it still kind of means to me. This was the first time I had really let anyone know the back story and everything the energizer means. Anticipating my class wanting to see the dance, I brought my laptop to class with me. When they mentioned how they wanted to see my dance I told them I brought my laptop. So I did my dance, and they all laughed. And now I will have lifelong friends, at least on Facebook. I ended up with a B for the assignment; I will end up editing it and earning an A in the hearts of its audience.

Events from my past tell me to be cautious and hold back. My head and my heart is telling me otherwise. I'm kind of scared but kind of excited. I need to put my walls back up a little bit. Afraid of what will happen. Not let so much of me out so quickly. But I am Cancer. It is in my nature. Everyone tells me things will work out. I'm not so sure. I'd love to think that they will but Im just so aprehensive. Thank you, Full House, for teaching me the word "aprehensive."
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So who wants to take my radio audience survey? [13 May 2007|02:42pm]
I have to write a paper stemming from a radio sudience survey, I already have about ten surveys filled out already but I'd like a few more to see if I can find any more trends. Please fill it out and help me out. :)

So who is going to fill it out and help me out? Everyone, right? Good. Be specific as possible. :)



1. List any radio stations you listen to.

2. List any DJs on those aforementioned radio stations.

3. Has listening to the radio ever been a part of your daily routine (ie. listening to it while driving to school or work, listening to it while getting ready in the morning, etc)? Is it still a part of your daily routine? If not, how long ago was it and why did this change?

4. Have you ever felt some sort of connection with other listeners while listening to the radio? Has a particular song make you think that other people feel the same way about that song? Has a particular news story made you feel connected with other listeners? Be specific as possible.

5. Do you listen to the radio at all? If so, when?

6. Do you own an mp3 player or satellite radio?

7. Where to you find out about news?

8. List 8 of your favorite bands. Which of these bands did you find out about through the radio?

9. Is there any band or musician you would like to hear on radio that cannot be currently found on radio?

10. Where do you find out about new music?

11. How do you feel about radio now?

12. Where do you think radio is headed?

Also, if you can think of any songs that specifically adress radio and music that'd be so helpful. Thanks!
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It's just another manic monday... [09 May 2007|12:38pm]
So Monday was eventful beyond all other Mondays.

I had my group presentation and I screwed it up. Really badly. My part was supposed to be the most important. I choked. My professor noticed. Not cool.

I didn't have the rough draft of my final paper fr my ENGL 391 class because I told my professor I needed sleep more than a rough draft of a paper. She was not impressed.

I didn't have a 300-word print out of my plan for my final paper for my AMST 321 class, though my professor did ask me what i thought about new Diet Coke Plus. I said the packaging was pretty and matched my eyes. He laughed.

I got a text from Adam saying Eric needed to see me in the SEB office asap. Immediately I knew what it was but I acted like I didn't know and didn't care. SWo I go to the office and he has this huge grin on his face. The sort of "I know something you don't know" thing, except I knew exactly what was going on. I go into the head's office with him and she offers me a job because someone had to drop because he wouldn't have been able to handle it. I was happy but didn't show it. Lack of sleep leads to lack of enthusiasm on the outside even though I'm uber excited on the inside.

Went to ENGL 320 and critiqued classmates' memoirs. I thought I did a good job, except I didn't receive one girl's memoir so I didn't have a critique for hers. Mine gets critiqued next week. Even though it's about the "MMMBop" energizer, I'm nervous because sharing something intimate like that about me scares me. I don't think anyone really knows the entire story behind it and these people will. It's kind of nerve-wrecking.

Went to SEB for a new board members meeting. it ended up being speed dating between old members and new members. It was kind of fun. I feel sorry for the guys because there are only 3 guys on the board. What kind ofmakes me feel bad is I took a guy's place so not only am I another girl, but I took the place of a guy. Whoops.

Still in the process of uploading/resizing my pictures. Michelle, Mandi, and I are sharing a photobucket account for it. I'll post pictures and links later.

Peace out, yo.

p.s. I still <3 Snood after all these years.
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[07 May 2007|02:00am]
[ mood | nervousbreakdown/anxietyattack ]

So I'm back from St. Louis/Tulsa/St. Louis. Lots of traveling drama. Other stupid Hanson fan drama that goes with every Hanson concert. Had a blast. Entirely too tired to upload my pictures or write out a proper review of what happened.

Right now I'm actually so stressed right now. I have a group presentation at 9:00am and I tried to get my group not to present because I told them I would be out of town the entire weekend and not get home until late Sunday night. Well, they signed us up for a Monday presentation anyway. And I'm pissed off because I haven't had the chance to talk to my group at all. I don't really even understand our topic at all, which makes this whole thing even more frustrating. I hate our topic. I can't even explain what it is. It bores me to tears. Even more so than Tulsa. So, now I'm doing some last minute presentation stuff and I will end up getting no sleep tonight because I have so much work to do for all of my classes on Monday.

My semester is over on Tuesday May 15th. Before then I have:
- 20 minute group presentation
- 5-7 page paper re-write
- 20 page group paper
- 7-9 page paper
- 10 page paper
- exam worth 33% of grade

I honestly feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown. As much as I love Hanson and traveling to see them, it is so stressful. I feel like I need another vacation to get away from everything. I need something stress-free because I'm beyond freaking out about everything right now. And what doesn't help is that I've gotten little to no sleep since Wednesday. I can't stop feeling like I want to cry. I just need to seriously get away from all this stupid stress.

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Grr @ Hnet [02 May 2007|07:08am]
To revamp a site where the members constantly complain is one thing, but to revamp a site and have it down for a few days before a lot of those members are traveling to a special event is beyond ridiculous. When will the site come back up? When will we get new information? Why are they unaware of their brains sometimes? Just kidding, haha. I had the old member login link bokmarked which is why the link wouldn't work for me. I'm there now and I don't know how I feel about it yet.

Tomorrow I fly to Philly and then to St. Louis. I spend the night with Michelle. Friday we leave withMichelle's friend Mandi for Tulsa. Ohmygoshsoexcitedcantbreathewellnotreallybutyougetthepoint.
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My trip to the ER [28 Apr 2007|12:18pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

On Wednesday my right side near my hip started hurting. It wasn't a painful hurt, it was more of a mild annoyance. Every so often this part of my body would make me aware that it existed and that something was up. Come Friday morning the pain was still there and it was escalating. Instead of noticing it every so often, the "pain" was constant. I put on my happy face, though, because no one at school knew I was in any sort of pain.

I decided I'd try to get throguh my 5 hour shift at work, but when I tried sweeping the frame shop, I knew something was wrong. I couldn't really bend over without some sort of real pain. I called my manager and told him I attempted to sweep the shop but that I was in pain and I couldn't. This way he could vouch for me if any other Framers complained about the unswept floor when they went into to work today.

As I picked up a 8x10 frame mislocated to put it in its appropriate location, my left arm started going numb. It felt as if I had fallen asleep on it awkwardly, except I did nothing to it except to pick up a horrendous gaudy gold frame. At this point I was actually scared for my life, afraid that if I went to sleep I would never wake up. I wondered if it was my appendix or my gallbladder and if I woud be abl to still go to Tulsa if I had to have surgery. I actually started crying, even though that made me feel worse because whenever I showed any sort of emotion my side hurt. Then I went and found my manager. Fortunately, he's the framing manager so we know each other pretty well. He told me to clock out and go home and seek some medical attention, and that my health was more important than completing my shift.

I went home and told my mom how I was feeling worse (she dropped by work to see how I was doing and I told her what was up then). She called my dad and told him we were going to the ER. He came home immediately and soon enough the three of us were on our way to the ER.

Compared to all of my mom's visits to the ER, mine was definitely quick. I was there for six hours. I spoke with several doctors as to what was up. They took some blood and I gave a urine sample. I had a cat scan and had to drink some wonderfully distusting juice that made me feel like I had to urinate really badly. I was told I was not pregnant. Um, I could've told anyone that.

I get the results from my cat scan around 3am. The doctor told me that the pain was not caused by my appendix, gallbladder, or by a kidney stone. Instead, I have an ovarian cyst, one that's 2.5 cm. He didn't say circumference or diameter, but still, that's a pretty large cyst inside of me causing this unnecessary pain. So now I have perscription pain killers (Woohoo!) and have to go to the OBGYN hopefully sometime this week. I'l probably have to skip a class, which is exactly what I don't want to do with it being the end of the semester.

So yeah, there you have it. My first tim the the hospital for my own purposes besides coming out of my mother's womb. My very own trip to the ER.

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[07 Apr 2007|03:02pm]
Does anyone know any websites that can help me find cheap airfare and possibly red-eye flights as well? I never have any idea of where to look!
Thanks mucho!
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Hanson @ The Supper Club in NYC [07 Mar 2007|11:47am]
Quite posibly the best Hanson concert ever?! I think so! Let's just say that after their first set, all Kacie could say was "They're fucking awesome!" Need I say anything more?! I think not!
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